[ at least adam answers. it's a victory in itself. ]
Wanted to see how you were doin', after that whole rerun of high school.
[ not that dean has much to rerun, since his schooling had been half-assed at best, with him dropping out in the end. but what they'd been doing for these past few days? it'd been... an entirely different type of experience. it's also why he didn't hate the event half as much, he thinks, but that's something he's not willing to share. ]
Most people have nightmares 'bout goin' back and all.
[Maybe it's Backward Priorities day. The one time people aren't dying or severely fucked up in the head, Dean wants to know if he's hanging in there. A part of him can appreciate the need for smalltalk to fill the silence that pretty much dictates their relationship, he really can, but Adam just can't bring himself to play ball this time.
He'd had a perfectly fine life once; he hadn't known what he'd had until he'd been ripped out of it. It makes heaviness settle in his chest.
This is the nightmare. Going back to when he'd been fifteen would be a miracle.]
It's over and done with. I'm putting it out of my mind.
[Easier said than done, but if his tone is to believed, he's already forgotten about it.]
Why'd you really call? Do you have something on who killed you? We all saw it.
[ dean's not expecting floodgates of emotions to be opened for him about the previous event, not one bit, but the dismissal entirely is... it's jarring, but then, he should know it'd be so with adam. ]
Just over and done with it, I can dig that.
[ as for the death... dean pauses at that, not sure exactly how much he should say. ]
Wasn't aware you were interested in that. If this is about stayin' outta his claws though, don't worry. We'll catch him soon enough.
[Adam has a choice: be honest or sugar-coat what he's getting at. The problem with these people, the problem with his dad the whole time he'd known him, is that they don't lay things out even when they should.
He'd rather be honest.]
You got turned into a pinata. Yeah, I'm interested. If something got you, that's a problem for me.
[Of the few things he knows about Dean, he's seen the man kill an angel. He's a fighter. Adam's not, and that means something that can get the jump on the Winchesters and Castiel is something he needs to know as much about as possible to steer himself clear. There's one person looking out for Adam, and that's Adam.]
[ whoever it is, they are good. dean hadn't heard or seen a thing; it had simply been a sharp pain, and lights out. so yes, they can get adam, they can get sam, or cas-- anyone, which is why dean's still so... so terrified of it all. people around him can die from more than just wonderland fucking around, there's a murderer on the loose and who is so easily one-uping the winchesters. ]
I don't know who he is. No doubt a human, since other... things don't need to do the whole anonymous show and tell gig.
[ he sighs then, the sound weary. but for some positivity, he still adds another reassurance; ]
They won't be free for long though, not if I have anything to say about it.
[Disappointment rises in him. So Castiel had been right after all, Dean doesn't know who'd murdered him. Adam had thought maybe the high school crap had just distracted everybody from nailing the asshole, but... Adam thinks to say something, but nothing comes out at first. He's not sure what to say if Dean doesn't have any more clues.
He has a crazy, fleeting thought of bringing up Lucifer's name, tipping Dean off to just how unsettled he is about doing anything outside of his room knowing for sure the thing is hovering with Michael in the rafters, but then he remembers that no one had bothered to warn him about Michael and Lucifer's presence in the beginning of his stay in Wonderland, how he'd been left to Michael's devices without any protection. He's not so pathetic that he'll ask for handouts.
Besides, Dean had died. Not the first time it's happened from what Adam knows, but it's enough to unscrew anyone's head for a while. Adam should know.]
Be on the watch for anybody, fine, I got it. Happy hunting. Try not to piss any more killers off before you find out who did it.
[ the same disappointment settles heavily in his chest each time he has to talk about this, but he might as well be honest. right now, there's multiple names he can think of who would pass as the murderer, but each with little evidence tied to them. as much as he would like to, dean can't just go accusing them of murder for the hell of it. ]
I'll try but no promises. Never know who you might be pissin' off with this place... But hey, if you.. uh, if you hear anything, I'd appreciate the heads up. Big time.
[ adam owes him absolutely nothing, but he might as well put it out there; any help would be welcome. ]
[Adam knows the Winchesters' penchant for burning bridges as well as anyone. With how they step on some people to get ahead, he agrees with Dean's remark. He, too, is one of the people with a reason to be pissed and looking to poke out a few organs.
He exhales, letting a few beats of silence pass. They both have to know he's not interested in saving Dean from his own fuck ups, not after everything Dean's kept from him.]
[ dean'll be surprised if he does end up hearing from adam, but he's not holding his breath. for a moment, he's quiet, trying to figure out what more there is to say-- or rather, what more he could say that'd be welcome. when nothing comes to mind, he simply sighs. ]
I'll do that. And you might want to tell your cameraman to lay off.
[He doesn't say "I won't" because at the very least, his dad's other family has experience in subjects he doesn't, and those subjects have a way of popping up now and then in Wonderland. But going to them every time he needs help is a little too much like a younger brother going to his older brothers. They don't work like that, not in reality.
You don't forgive your killers so easily. This whole conversation's proof.]
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Date: 2014-07-25 01:57 pm (UTC)Wanted to see how you were doin', after that whole rerun of high school.
[ not that dean has much to rerun, since his schooling had been half-assed at best, with him dropping out in the end. but what they'd been doing for these past few days? it'd been... an entirely different type of experience. it's also why he didn't hate the event half as much, he thinks, but that's something he's not willing to share. ]
Most people have nightmares 'bout goin' back and all.
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Date: 2014-07-28 10:01 pm (UTC)He'd had a perfectly fine life once; he hadn't known what he'd had until he'd been ripped out of it. It makes heaviness settle in his chest.
This is the nightmare. Going back to when he'd been fifteen would be a miracle.]
It's over and done with. I'm putting it out of my mind.
[Easier said than done, but if his tone is to believed, he's already forgotten about it.]
Why'd you really call? Do you have something on who killed you? We all saw it.
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Date: 2014-07-30 10:21 pm (UTC)Just over and done with it, I can dig that.
[ as for the death... dean pauses at that, not sure exactly how much he should say. ]
Wasn't aware you were interested in that. If this is about stayin' outta his claws though, don't worry. We'll catch him soon enough.
[ so don't be scared... or whatever this is. ]
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Date: 2014-07-31 07:49 pm (UTC)He'd rather be honest.]
You got turned into a pinata. Yeah, I'm interested. If something got you, that's a problem for me.
[Of the few things he knows about Dean, he's seen the man kill an angel. He's a fighter. Adam's not, and that means something that can get the jump on the Winchesters and Castiel is something he needs to know as much about as possible to steer himself clear. There's one person looking out for Adam, and that's Adam.]
Who is he? What is he?
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Date: 2014-07-31 08:58 pm (UTC)[ whoever it is, they are good. dean hadn't heard or seen a thing; it had simply been a sharp pain, and lights out. so yes, they can get adam, they can get sam, or cas-- anyone, which is why dean's still so... so terrified of it all. people around him can die from more than just wonderland fucking around, there's a murderer on the loose and who is so easily one-uping the winchesters. ]
I don't know who he is. No doubt a human, since other... things don't need to do the whole anonymous show and tell gig.
[ he sighs then, the sound weary. but for some positivity, he still adds another reassurance; ]
They won't be free for long though, not if I have anything to say about it.
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Date: 2014-08-01 07:08 am (UTC)He has a crazy, fleeting thought of bringing up Lucifer's name, tipping Dean off to just how unsettled he is about doing anything outside of his room knowing for sure the thing is hovering with Michael in the rafters, but then he remembers that no one had bothered to warn him about Michael and Lucifer's presence in the beginning of his stay in Wonderland, how he'd been left to Michael's devices without any protection. He's not so pathetic that he'll ask for handouts.
Besides, Dean had died. Not the first time it's happened from what Adam knows, but it's enough to unscrew anyone's head for a while. Adam should know.]
Be on the watch for anybody, fine, I got it. Happy hunting. Try not to piss any more killers off before you find out who did it.
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Date: 2014-08-18 10:37 am (UTC)I'll try but no promises. Never know who you might be pissin' off with this place... But hey, if you.. uh, if you hear anything, I'd appreciate the heads up. Big time.
[ adam owes him absolutely nothing, but he might as well put it out there; any help would be welcome. ]
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Date: 2014-08-18 08:28 pm (UTC)He exhales, letting a few beats of silence pass. They both have to know he's not interested in saving Dean from his own fuck ups, not after everything Dean's kept from him.]
Yeah, I will. That's the decent thing to do.
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Date: 2014-08-18 10:03 pm (UTC)[ dean'll be surprised if he does end up hearing from adam, but he's not holding his breath. for a moment, he's quiet, trying to figure out what more there is to say-- or rather, what more he could say that'd be welcome. when nothing comes to mind, he simply sighs. ]
If you need anything, don't hesitate to call.
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Date: 2014-08-18 10:28 pm (UTC)[He doesn't say "I won't" because at the very least, his dad's other family has experience in subjects he doesn't, and those subjects have a way of popping up now and then in Wonderland. But going to them every time he needs help is a little too much like a younger brother going to his older brothers. They don't work like that, not in reality.
You don't forgive your killers so easily. This whole conversation's proof.]